What was that Cheryl Crow song?

"never had a day of fun in his life"

that's me, for sure. Only now, when I see people having fun, when I step into an elevator of 7 smiling women, it just makes me sad, defeats me, that chemical release that comes with it over-runs me. Because I'll probably never have a day of fun. It would be quite irrational to expect that, given my past.

People say, look at yourself, you must be the problem. Thanks. That's a big help.